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How Creative Are You?
I've seen this a few times. And this morning...this is all I've got. So, I thought I'd try it. Last time I did one of these I couldn't get it to my blog. See, I'm creative, but I don't know how to work this little blog. I worried that I wouldn't be creative...then all those years trying to be a designer were a waste. Whew. Made it through that one.
I'm attending a new Bible Study at church...it's just 8 weeks for this one. And I know it will be good, but I'll be thinking A LOT. I know that I often just proceed through life without thinking. So, this will be a challenge for me. I took this class before (in 2002). And during the middle of the class was when I found out that I was expecting our #2. I'm sure that I missed out on some good stuff because I was so freaked out...I had a 7 mo. old and I was pregnant. What's not to freak out about. So much has changed since then. Now I'm a mom to 3...and I've lost my Gram and my Dad. M's mom is waiting on biopsy results...life could change drastically again with her report. So, I'm curious to see how this process will change/affect/help me. I'm also excited for the opportunity to grow. It's funny that comments were about how much stuff I've done. I guess I did do a lot of stuff. But for me...it seems that most of that happened before 23. And definitely, truning 30 has been hard for me. I'm not 30 now...that was a few years ago. But, I still feel like I've not recovered. I stayed up late one summer night talking to a few girlfriends about that. I still don't feel like I have a grasp on what made that change so hard. Our #3 was born just before my 30th. I'm sure that had the biggest impact. I was this girl that didn't fear a thing...I traveled...I shared my faith with abandon...I hid Bibles in my luggage to sneak into communist countries. Now, I have a hard time going to church. The stomach bug seems to live in our church nursery. I dread dropping off my little ones. I try to have my mom...or M's mom watch them so I can limit their time at church. Crazy, right? But, maybe it comes from my 2nd trip to China, the one where I came home with a parasite. The 15 hours sick on a plane from Shanghai. The endoscopy to take biopsies of my intestine and stomach when I was still sick 6 months later. I had lost 35# before I returned from the trip...back when I was 23 that was weight I didn't need to lose. M and I were dating at the time (while I was gone that summer he bought my engagement ring). He picked me up at LAX and said that if I wasn't with my group...he wouldn't have recognized me coming off the plane. Eventually, with a coctail of antibiotics and prilosec to keep the antibiotics down...I was able to return to eating. But, right now...I wonder at what cost. If I were to make a list of my last 6 1/2 years...I've changed diapers, and I've wiped...bottoms, the floor, the counter, sticky fingers, and food off the walls. I had my job as MOM, but I didn't have me.
I typed the above on Tuesday morning...but time got away from me...so now it's Wednesday, and we're home from our Co-op and the kids are napping/resting/reading.
I wouldn't trade time with the little people in my house for anything. But, to find that carefree girl I once was... Oh, how I wish I knew where she went. I hope I didn't leave her in China. I'm not quite ready to go back there. Which is really funny, because on that trip I was to be making arrangements to live there for 3 years. (I was in China twice for 10 weeks each) SO...I'm doing this study, then I have a workbook I'll go through...and then we'll see. This year I have so much growing to do. If anyone is interested in the titles of the books...go ahead and email me. I'm on a hunt to find my spirit of adventure again.
Oh...and I had to add the word verification. I got my first comment spam today.
6 comments:
I couldn't do the creativity thing, but I'm about the same as you. My dad calls me a compulsive creator, I always need to have busy hands.
It's interesting the way kids change our lives. My first was born when I was only 20, and now 5 years later I'm wondering when was the last time I did something spontaenous? It seems like the sense of responsibility has overtaken the sense of adventure.
Don't know what to tell you, I think I'm in the same boat. All my best to you.
I still haven't CO the hat, my motivation is low right now.
I hear what you're saying...I turned 30 recently, and, while I love my life and my family, what happened to the girl I used to be? The one that went to plays and concerts, that wasn't afraid to walk around the city at night? I'm not the person I thought I would be, life's not what I thought it would be.
This was a very thought-provoking post. I think we change as we learn what life can be like and as our priorities change.
My daughter was 6 mos. old when I found out I was pregnant. I totally understand about freaking out!
And it is hard to be Mommy ALL the time. I crave a whole day to do whatever I want with abandon. Except, I know I would at least call home to check on everybody.
Enjoy your Bible study. God has amazing plans for you!
Of course your creative - you have three creations; 6,4 & 2 Right?
I think all of us wonder where the girl inside of us went some days. I wish mine would come out a play more often. I think that going to the Bible study is a great idea though. Maybe it can bring you some peace.
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