So why am I starting over...

to answer JY in the comments and probably others...

So much of M having a new job and me having a job outside the home after 7 years has felt like starting over. There are so many new normals. Getting used to a new routine. I think the biggest thing for me in the last few years has been starting over with new friends. I don't even want to get into why, but I lost several of my close friends. In the last 3 years God has blessed me with such awesome women to be around and email with . And even my new relationship with my FIL. He's awesome. And I really feel that he's been a extra father figure for me in the absence of mine. I know that loss always seem hard...but the starting over is kind of like a rainbow after the storm. I've had enough of the cloudy skies. I'm looking for the rainbows. I'm going to focus on the RAINBOWS! I'm going to try to post Rainbow moments...so that I can keep my thoughts on all that's good and not the cloudy skies.