10.06.2009

!@#$%^&*

I don't normally use curse words. Right now, I kind of wish I did. I'd like to use them to let out some of the emotions I'm feeling right now. Instead, I'm typing here. I have to let it out in a way that my kids won't see. Sure, I want them to know Mommy gets frustrated. Right now...their tender hearts need to be protected.

M is home. It's not yet 4pm...on a Tuesday. What's this mean. Well, at 10:30 this morning he was laid off. It took awhile to finish things up and clear out his desk, then a co-worker took him to lunch. To say the least...my head and my heart are reeling.

October has been a good month...our anniversary, last year M's first day at a new job....
October has been a hard month...5 years ago my Gram's cancer diagnosis, 2 years ago losing my dad...

(Yes, we've told the kids. But, we're trying to keep the emotional level stable for now.)

And now...M was laid off. The 13th would have been his 1 year at this company. We're just a week short of that now. And the ironic thing...September 26th was my last day of work. I finally quit thinking things had settled down and I could find a less hectic balance as a wife, mom of 3, homeschooler, friend...

I'm not even sure of what to think...or do for that matter.

12 comments:

A. said...

Ugh! I'm so sorry! Layoffs are the worst. No forewarning seems so unfair. Your family is in my prayers. We deal with layoffs every year, but at least we have forewarning. It took years to get use to. Prayer has been the one thing to ease us through each time.
I hope you two find some time to vent it out together once the littles are asleep.

Sarah said...

UGH! I'm so sorry you are all dealing with this again. I hope this is a short downturn, and soon M will have another better position. You're all in my thoughts and prayers...

Dorothy said...

{{Hugs}}

Don't you sometimes wish God would stop growing us, and just let us be???? :) I'll be praying that you find the joy in the situation and that M finds a new job soon.

And go ahead a stamp your feet a little - it might help.

Unknown said...

Sorry this has hit your home. I pray things will turn around and something will be there to counteract this.

Life is a Marathon said...

I'm sorry! Golly... He has sustained you all through this season before, and He is faithful.
Mary Mary, a Gospel group you may know, has a song that I really like (but can't remember the title now). It says, "I just can't give up now. Come too far from where I started from. Nobody told me the road would be easy, but I don't believe He's brought me this far to leave me!" AMEN!

Gail said...

I'm too speechless to make a pithy remark. Oh. My.

You're in my prayers.

Bubblesknits said...

Oh geez. I'm so sorry. Keeping you in my prayers.

Good Yarns said...

Oh no! I am reeling from that awful news for you.
Lord, please bless this family as they deal with such surprising and difficult news. Give them courage and peace and trust in you.
Amen

and don't feel like you can't give a little *@%$!!! &^&! at the computer now and then!

Miss Me said...

i'm so sorry to hear that you're having to do this all over again...

Tammy said...

Oh I am so sorry! Your family will be in my prayers. (((hugs)))

hjw said...

Oh wow. I am so sorry. I had a wise elderly woman today remind me that God is in charge, and I know its true, but I know how hard it can be to rely on that in tumultuous times. We've been there (still are) too. I hope you guys can find the peace that surpasses understanding.

Free Range Chick said...

I need to keep up with my blog reading better. I hope that things are coming around for M in the job search. That sucks.