My life as I see it...

In the study that I'm doing on Monday nights, one of my assignments was to make a collage of my life as as I see it right now. One rainy Sunday aftenoon, M took the boys out of the house while 2 napped and I gathered my supplies. This was so cathardic for me. I am a MOPS mom, I love hummingbirds (Sometimes I think that God sends a little hello in a hummingbird at the window.) I can't keep my fridge full (I can't imagine what it will be like when 6 & 4 are 16 & 14!) or the toilet clean. I sell MK. The Really Wooly is for my Gram. And the wordless book beads too. That's how I she explained my need for a Savior to me. I'm a knitter (yes, those are toothpicks that I made into tiny knitting needles...I did the actual knitting on US #1's then transfered to the toothpicks...but they're the same gauge.) The white strip is a verse. Ps. 46:10 Be still and know that I am God. I'm broken...in more ways than one (the bandaid). S'mores are our family time. The sticker says we've been friends in the sunshine and the shade. Right now, I'm all about living true faced...and finding friends who aren't in it just for the good times. I'm so thankful for those who have really encouraged me as this fall was tough for our family. I'm a Homeschooling mom (The tabs are from a curriculum catalog.) I'm mom...to 3. Wife to 1! I love learning about the world.


I has some extra things I'd pulled out when I was gathering my supplies. I realized these weren't part of me today...so much as they were part of my past...my foundation. The blue square...happens to be paper from China, but it reminded me of a swimming pool. I'm a swimmer. Phil 4:13 is the verse that was on my wall...and the verse that I would quote when I was taking springboard diving. (back in the day, I was pretty good at an inward 1 1/2 off the 3m. board...now, it's been so long I'd be shaking up there) The chops...I bought in China. (The first 3 are either faith hope and love...or peace joy and love. But, the only one I remember now is love. It's amazing how quickly a language leaves when you don't practice. The bottom 2 are my name.) The verse with the chops is 1 Cor 13:13 And now these three remain: faith, hope, and love. But the greatest of these is love. The structure is something M and I built while we were at Cal Poly. It has 3 benches that cantalever for sitting and watching the sunset. The verse here is Ecc 4:9 Two are better than one...if one falls down his friend can help him up. I know that's so true for M & me. The tools...my dad. The beads again...they're part of my foundation...but part of me today too. My name and the meaning behind it...why my parents chose Kristen.

Oh, and in the book I'm reading for the class. Pg. 74...knitting content: "The following writing and a beautiful, useful dishcloth were given to me by a woman who had been denying all of her assets and looking only at what she was doing wrong. She was to the point of almost destroying herself before she learned to value herself as God values her.

As I was knitting this dishcloth I made some mistakes. In the past, I would have torn it out and done it so that it would be PERFECT! But as I'm thinking more correctly in my recovery, the thought came to me, "This dishcloth will be just as useful with the mistakes in it," so the mistakes are still there. (I even mad some on purpost to prove my point.) As you use this dishcloth, let it remind you that YOU are OK and very useful, even when you make mistakes and are not perfect. Fondly,....."