Good Morning

I'm not ever sure of what to say...and it's easier to read other's thoughts than compose my own before the java wakes me up. But, today, I'm trying to let typing process my thoughts for me. Maybe this journaling will give perspective.

Knitting thoughts for today:

• I saw Scout's Calorimetry...and I was reminded I've been wanting to make one. Everyone talks about it being big...and I have a small head. The thing is that I don't yet understand short rows...or how to adjust a pattern to fit me.
• So I'll keep on working on 1's sweater. It's the Daisy Cardigan by Marie Grace Smith at the Garter Belt. http://www.thegarterbelt.com/ms_daisy.html I wish I knew how to link these in the text. I'm using Cascade Cherub Kaleidoscope in 1320. I'm in love with the vibrant color, and the softness of the yarn. I'm not sure about the contrast color at the hem and wrist. I'm knitting a size 4 since 1's big for her age. I may add contrast when her height catches up with her weight.
• I'm almost done with this Karabella shawl. M bought it for me Christmas 2005. After I noticed a mistake (I was 20 rows away from completion) 2/3 of the way back...it sat in a bag for months. I was too sad to frog...even though I knew I had no other choice. Look at where I've come. That was my first knit other than a scarf...and it took forever to get that far. Now, it took me 4 evenings knitting with American Idol to catch up. I should be done next week and have my #17's back.
• Also on the needles, a sunset felted purse. My dad loved this one when he first flipped through the book, and since he was buying the yarn I thought I'd let him pick the colors. It's a fun knit. It's easier to pick up the #15 circ. when the kids are running around the house then the #6 dpn's for the sleeve of the Daisy Cardigan.
  

Kid thoughts for the day: 5 has a cough...keep him from running and making it worse. 1 has had a fever this week...but she's looking better. 3 is the only healthy one left. Keep him away from the others. Yeah right! Good Job Mom...Oatmeal pancakes and hot tea for breakfast! I don't often feel like supermom...so it's important to remind myself of all that I do. Maybe no one else gets that, but there's no recognition in being a SAHM...and so I have to give myself props just to keep my head up.

Friend thoughts for the day: Last night I asked M "why is it that everyone is walking through the 'deep waters'?" Each of my friends if facing their own tough battles. I want to see the RAINBOW that comes after the storm. Yet, the gray clouds seem to linger. Give me HOPE FOR TOMORROW.

Last year M & I bought this photo at a street fair for our bedroom. It's in the CO mountains about a year after a forest fire. Without the devastating burn, there would be no purple wildflowers. Not the beauty expected from a fire. This image takes me here....

Isaiah 61

Announce Freedom to All Captives

1 -7 The Spirit of God, the Master, is on me because God anointed me. He sent me to preach good news to the poor, heal the heartbroken, Announce freedom to all captives, pardon all prisoners. God sent me to announce the year of his grace— a celebration of God's destruction of our enemies— and to comfort all who mourn, To care for the needs of all who mourn in Zion, give them bouquets of roses instead of ashes, Messages of joy instead of news of doom, a praising heart instead of a languid spirit. Rename them "Oaks of Righteousness" planted by God to display his glory. They'll rebuild the old ruins, raise a new city out of the wreckage. They'll start over on the ruined cities, take the rubble left behind and make it new. You'll hire outsiders to herd your flocks and foreigners to work your fields, But you'll have the title "Priests of God," honored as ministers of our God. You'll feast on the bounty of nations, you'll bask in their glory. Because you got a double dose of trouble and more than your share of contempt, Your inheritance in the land will be doubled and your joy go on forever.

8 -9 "Because I, God, love fair dealing and hate thievery and crime, I'll pay your wages on time and in full, and establish my eternal covenant with you. Your descendants will become well-known all over. Your children in foreign countries Will be recognized at once as the people I have blessed."

10 -11 I will sing for joy in God, explode in praise from deep in my soul! He dressed me up in a suit of salvation, he outfitted me in a robe of righteousness, As a bridegroom who puts on a tuxedo and a bride a jeweled tiara. For as the earth bursts with spring wildflowers, and as a garden cascades with blossoms, So the Master, God, brings righteousness into full bloom and puts praise on display before the nations.

My prayer for today: God help me to trust that 2007 is the year of Your grace.

Ok, so my thought are disjointed. So is my life at this point. Hence the NEED to journal. My thoughts must work themselves out and I thought I'd try this. For now this won't be your fun to read, eloquent blog...but a pouring out of my heart...and maybe in this...I'll figure some things out... And should someone happen upon my thoughts...maybe it will help them the way that reading from others has helped me.

REALLY...I've got to get on with my day...even though there's more for me to say...I'll have to save it for another day. k